What's stopping you today? And why you should stay stuck sometimes.
What's stopping me from writing today? Is it a lack of motivation? Is it having no direction? Is it not having enough practice or not having a way to put my words together the right way? There's so much technology to help me such as using my phone and my talk to text mode like I'm doing right now. I had a great idea for a song this morning.
I had an idea for a song and the chorus of the song would say "you've got to know somebody to get in." It would start from being born going through childhood getting married getting your first job getting a really good gig, getting into a club, getting into a festival, and then finally getting into heaven you've got to know somebody: you have to know Jesus.
But I just can't bring myself to write this song I'm not sure why. I don't know if it aligns with my purpose or not. I'm not sure if it's just laziness? I'm so comfortable in my house right now. The dogs are sleeping on my bed the laundry is done the dishes are done my husband is at work my kids are at school.
I just feel very directionless sometimes but on the other hand I feel like everything is as it is as it should be. This is all I've ever wanted; to have a comfortable life, have a comfortable home: why would I change any of that with the song?
I don't know sometimes what my divine purpose is. My divine purpose probably aligns with music and song writing and singing and playing an instrument of some sort. But I struggle with which instrument which song am I the writer or am I just the singer or am I just the back up guitarist for the person singing the song. Am I just meant to be a fan?
I know these things for sure; I am a person with a good life I'm a wife a mother and a daughter a sister and a friend. I'm also a teacher. I'm a learner. I'm a Performer. I'm a pleaser. I'm a musician and a player. I'm a Hall of Famer. I'm a songwriter.
Maybe I'm just feeling a little bit lonely right now because everyone else is out in the world doing their thing. But I'm exactly where I want to be in a nice cozy house surrounded by beautiful things very comfortably sitting in a chair that I bought for myself.
Maybe I just want a regular life of comfort and maybe that brings me joy. And maybe I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing and then it shouldn't be as hard as it is to break into whatever it is I think I want like the music, film, or entertainment industry.
Maybe just sitting back in gratitude is what I need to do today and then I'm OK with that because that feels like breathing. It doesn't stress my heart and being grateful for what I have is all I need at this point.
So here's to staying stuck sometimes. Sometimes, all we need is a little rest.
gratitude = satisfaction (happiness)